Something is wrong with me. A small thing is worrying me- it’ll probably come to nothing- but I can’t get over it.
And I can’t get away. Everything I look at on the Internet is logged. There are CCTV cameras everywhere. I am feeling 20 years of emotions all at once: compassion, grief, desire, guilt, sadness and more. My head is buzzing and I feel sick.
There are two worlds: in one world, you can explore feelings, talk and make mistakes. The other is a world of contracts where certain wrongdoings are like a heart attack: the end. I have too much of the latter and not enough of the former.
I need help, and I need to be brave.